Tuesday, July 31, 2012

8: 365




Be still my soul;
the Lord is on your side. 
Bear patiently the cross 
of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God to 
order and provide. 
In every change 
he will remain. 

Monday, July 30, 2012

7: 365

Left to right: myself, Shelby, Natalie, Michaela



Saying Goodbye.
It is a season of change. Change means saying goodbye to many places. people and things. Saying goodbye to things and places is like removing a splinter-- it hurts to take out but it doesn't belong there so it needs to go. I've lost a lot of places and things lately, but it comes with a freeing feeling, knowing that holding on to those things isn't edifying anyway. But saying goodbye to people is different; it's less like taking out a splinter and more like ripping out an organ.

These particular people have seemed as much vital to my existence as my organs. Each one has served a unique and beautiful purpose in my life. The four of us make up something I feel unbelievably blessed to be apart of.

We've all come to the consensus that the four of us make up the four main hobbits in Lord of the Rings. Michaela is Merry, Natalie is Pippin, Shelby is Sam and I am Frodo. In a really nerdy and sentimental way I must say that I couldn't have walked this journey without my fellow hobbits.

One of the saddest parts of the entire trilogy for me to watch is when Pippin leaves Edoras with Gandalf and is separated from Merry. I know that I'm supposed to be Frodo, but I very much relate to this scene. There's something so sad about being separated without completely understanding why. And there's something heartbreaking about being so unsure about when you will all be united again.

The four of us hugging. We
look damn good together.
Merry and Pippin go on to both do very great and noble things (far more in the book than in the movie). The reunion of the two is a heart-wrenching scene that is almost entirely missed in the movie. Some day I'll be blogging that scene.

Saying goodbye is hard. Sometimes it's unexpected and sometimes it's unmerited. But what I've learned is that regardless of preparation it sucks. Much like Aragorn, my wise friend once said to me, "We are creatures that carry on, it's just that God is having me carry on somewhere else."


Sunday, July 29, 2012

6: 365

The Atlantic was born today and I'll tell you how:
The clouds above opened up and let it out.
I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole.
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.
Those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door have been silenced forever more.
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no.
I need you so much closer.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

5: 365


What happens when you live with your best friend?
 You get uncommonly excited about things 
like blankets, awful songs and Asian men.
#lifeisgood

Friday, July 27, 2012

4: 365

Minneapolis Music & Movies in the Park

At Lake Harriet, Minneapolis.

"Oh, I thought you said 'squirsh.' Can you climp that?" -my brother.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

3: 365

I asked you a question
I didn't need you to reply
My good friend's treehouse.
Is it getting heavy?
And then realize
It's getting heavy
Well I thought it was already as heavy as can be

Is it overwhelming
To use a crane to crush a fly?
It's a good time for Superman
To lift the sun into the sky
Cause it's getting heavy
Well I thought it was already as heavy as can be

Tell everybody
Waiting for Superman
That they should try to
Hold on the best they can
He hasn't dropped them, forgot them or anything
It's just too heavy for Superman to lift

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

1: 365

This particular place has given me great comfort and solace in times of sorrow. I'll miss you, home.

"And the soles of our shoes are all worn down."

Once upon a time I was in China with my best friend. She had the idea of taking photos of our feet at all the different places we went to. It really showed the eclectic nature of the city of Beijing and my time there.

By suggestion of another dear friend, I will start up this habit again. I'll be taking a photo of my feet every day for 365 days. We'll see where my feet take me in the next year. Enjoy!

We Are the Battery Human


Today I was listening to the song "We Are the Battery Human" by Stornoway. It reminded me of a Cyberman from Doctor Who. I thought others deserved to have this picture as well. 




Conversation with a nine year old.

JJ: Can you sell things at the park?
Me: No, not technically.
JJ: What about the ice cream man?
Me: Well, I guess he can sell things at the park. But you have to have a business license.
JJ: What about hamburgers-- can you sell hamburgers at the park?
Me: Not unless you have a business license.
JJ: So does my dad have a business license?
Me: Your dad's business has a business license.
JJ: So my dad can sell hamburgers at the park?

Monday, July 9, 2012

I don't like suburbs.

This past week my distaste for suburbia has come out tenfold it's typical capacity, for many reasons.

      I'm reading the book, Radical Together by David Platt. (As a side note, I read Radical about a month ago, and since then every book I've read has been a disappointment; it's good to be reading Platt again.) If you know anything about David Platt, it is probably that he challenges everyone to have God's heart for the nations. It's been opening my eyes more to the ignorance of people around me, and convicting me of my own ignorance as well. By no means do I want to say that everyone that lives in the suburbs is ignorant, but I can imagine that they are more susceptible to ignorance. It's a lot easier to forget about the poor and dying when you have food and health in abundance. (As a side note, it's obvious that being poor in America doesn't necessarily mean being sick, just as being wealthy doesn't prevent sickness in itself.)


      I recently had a conversation with a couple of friends about urban living compared to suburban living. The vast majority of my friends live in the suburbs and wish they lived in the city . It had been a long time since I'd had a conversation with people that consider the suburbs better than the city. It was a couple minutes in to our conversation about "better" houses and "better" neighborhoods that I realized we had different working definitions of those things. It'a a subjective conversation, but I think it comes down to this: I value diversity (in race, opinions, personalities, goals, values and lifestyles), character, history, and excitement. Other people may value security, safety and unity (please, give me more to add if you have anything). Of course, living in the city may mean I have to give up some of these things, but honestly, I'd exchange safety or excitement any day.

      I spent The 4th in Excelsior, MN. As soon as we got off the freeway I regretted it. These were some things I observed:

     Suburbs are ridiculously far away from everything else in the world. There are usually three targets, an upscale grocery store, and a thousand houses. In Excelsior, however, there is even less than that. There's a lake (all the good suburban neighborhoods are in a lake), and a little town filled with over-priced boutiques and gift shops. I mean why? At my house, when we're out of of peanut butter, we walk to the nearest convenient store, or drive a mile to Walgreens. What are these poor people supposed to do? I can't imagine the need to buy expensive figurines comes up often enough for it to be necessary to have an entire street full of gift shops, and not a single peanut butter-selling shop.

     Pedestrians don't understand how four way stops work. They were all walking every which way. I know that could be mostly to do with the crowds from the holiday, but I doubt the same chaos would ensue in the city.

     Drivers don't know how four way stops work. I just... How is that possible?

     Drivers don't know how to park parallel to the street. I'm not talking about parallel parking (I've long known that you can't expect people that don't live in the city to know how to parallel park), I'm talking about pulling up to the side of the road.

     The people walk painfully slow.

     Even dogs have more expensive clothes than me.



The stereotypes about city living and suburban living just aren't true. I lived my entire life in North Minneapolis and no one ever tried to break into our house. But this week I moved to the suburbs and came home to this a broken door. Thank you suburbs.